School, kids, jobs....

Life has been strolling by per usual. New classes start tomorrow. I am still waiting for my financial aid. I left an email for both my academic adviser and my financial aid adviser. Still living with my parents... my goal to move out by spring is still on. I am turning in two applications tomorrow. I have been ill with ANOTHER stupid kidney infection... but I think the antibiotics are finally kicking in.
I am almost done filling out the child support papers. I have mixed feelings about doing this to him, but he is still not doing anything for or with the kids. Well, better quit procrastinating and get to work on my LAST assignment for this class. *smiles*

Somebody's me.....

The Change

She slowly opened her eyes, but could not see anything. She had trouble remembering what had happened. Darkness engulfed her. She was wet, sticky, and cold. She pushed through a thick-like fluid that surrounded her. She reached hardness, a wall. She desperately patted along the wall and she realized she was completely encased. Suddenly, she felt it becoming hard to breathe and her heart began to race in her chest. She heard its rhythm echoing loud in her ears. In a sudden panic, with all her strength she pushed forward. With a rush and a crumbling crash, the wall fell away and she tumbled to the ground. She lay there on the ground, shivering wet in the late evening wind. She gazed up at the sky and saw the first few stars beginning to twinkle and the moon peeking down at her. Around her were tall trees, bushes, and many rocks and stones. She could hear the low rumbling of a river near by. She looked down at her brand new self. She let out a loud gasp. Her body was completely different! She had two long legs and two dainty feet. She moved them slowly back and forth. She then raised her arms and looked at them and at her hands. She held her hands in front of her face and wiggled her long fingers fast. She giggled to herself, thinking of all the new things she could do now. She looked around and found some large leaves and reached for them. She winced and realized how painful and weak she really was, but was determined to continue her task. She had been through so much, but was not going to give up now. She knew this was a good change, and she must go on and be strong. While she was cleaning her new body off, removing the sticky substance, she heard rustling in the trees and bushes. She jumped and her green eyes darted around the wooded area. She quickly tried to stand to defend herself, but stumbled and fell back hard onto the forest floor. Slowly, faces peeked from behind the trees, bushes, and stones around her. Some were very familiar, and others vaguely familiar. She felt her breathing and heart calm some as they came out more and she realized she knew these creatures. As she regained herself, she felt a heavy feeling weighing on her back, and reached her hands around. She felt a large wet velvety cloth-like thing upon her back and pulled hard. She felt a searing pain tear through her body and let out a shrill banshee-like scream that echoed through the woods. The creatures raced to her to comfort her. She looked back to see that they were purple and black wings. They were HER wings. Her eyes widened and she grinned big and looked around at the others to see them smiling back at her. They were genuinely happy for her. They were her friends, her true friends. One very tall dark haired man and a short pretty woman stepped forward. She kindly wrapped a warm thick blanket around her. He reached out and offered her a large fruit. She took the fruit as she looked at them both with great thanks in her eyes. These two she knew well, she could tell. Her memory was coming back, slowly, but it was coming back. She sat on a log and ate the delicious fruit with the warm blanket wrapped around her. The others sat in a circle and chatted. She felt happy and felt at home with them. After what seemed like a couple of hours had passed, she stood and removed the blanket. Out fluttered huge full beautiful shiny black and dark purple wings that stretched wide and looked gorgeous against her now dry soft long curly copper hair and ivory freckled flesh. She stood strong and tall and her friends stared up at her, so proud of her. Proud of what she had been through and what she had become despite the hardships she had overcome. She felt the night wind calling her and looked down and the handsome tall dark haired man and the pretty woman and they nodded slowly, but commented to return soon. She nodded, smiled at them and then at the others. She slowly stepped forward, feeling a bit awkward at first. She stepped into the clearing. She fluttered her new wings, feeling their immense strength. She felt empowered. She felt new. Looking up at the dark night sky, with the stars twinkling down at her, and the moon calling to her, she began to fly up. As her wings took her further up and she started to soar through the night sky, she felt complete, strong, safe, and loved. She was ready for her new life to begin.

Time left...

Time goes by so fast. I have only 2 more days until Christmas!! I have shopping to do and cookies to make with the kids. I want them to have a great Christmas even though money is very tight. For the most part, they seem to understand that money is tight and they won't be getting too much. We got a tablet for Abigail for her computer. She will be able to do more of her artwork and post it to her deviant art much more easier. I also got her an awesome cell phone with unlimited texting, a cam, and it is also a mp3 player. Its the kind you buy the cards to put money on. Its a slide phone. She has been wanting to get a cellphone for awhile, and being 14 years old, I think its important for her to have to keep in touch and be able to let me know what is going on. For Zachary, I got him a touch mp3 that is also a video player. I also got him some hex nano toys and the series transformers. I am waiting for his WII guitar hero kit to get here. Other than these gifts, I am just going to get a few more small things for them. For Liberty (my 6 year old niece) and Kamyl (my 11 year old niece).... I am not quite sure what I am getting them yet. They live with us and are like daughters to me even though my parents adopted them. I will be going shopping tonight and tomorrow and I am sure I will get it all done in time.

2 steps back

Well, I find myself unemployed once again. Its a long story and I do not quite understand exactly why I was terminated. The administrator would not give me the main reason(s). I had finally went in to work after calling every day for almost 2 weeks and asked to talk with someone. I was given my check today, so I can buy a few Christmas presents for my children, my nieces, and perhaps a few close friends. I do not know what I am going to do now. I feel depressed, confused, and lost. Am I going to be able to get another job? Will I be able to provide for my children? My goal to move out by the spring is in question now. Perhaps I should move to another state and try to get a job? Hell, I don't know...

Motivation needed!

Stagnant. That is how I have felt the last week. I feel like I set my daily or weekly goals, attempt to get them all done only to feel discouraged when I do not get them ALL done. Today, I need to contact my school and get some issues resolved. I also need to call my new employer. I have SEVERAL issues to deal with and get resolved with my work. It seems like they have done things ass backwards. I have worked around 4 shifts and they still have not had me fill out my new employee paperwork!! I have called and left messages and have not received a call back. I did finally call and talked with the DNS yesterday, but she said she was dealing with a "crisis" and would call me back later in the day. Well, she did not call me back. Around 4pm, I called the human resource woman and left a message about the new employee paperwork. I *do* want to get paid for the work I did!! I am going to give the DNS until around 1pm today to call me back. If I do not receive a call back by then, I am going to go into the facility to talk to the DNS and human resources. I am also going to copy down Corporates phone number in case I need to call and explain everything to them. Damn, I wish I just could get a job at the hospital!!